Writers Jam

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DOES NEW BEGINNING REALLY MEANS NEW YOU?

I have always thought that the start of a new year always means something different. But every year, the new year's resolution just ends up either in the dustbin or being stuck up in the fridge. A new beginning sounds exciting at first but when we get out of our comfort zone, it feels like a curse. The mind starts to miss the comfort of being lazy, the comfort of just lying on the bed, binge watching your favourite show and basically being a dead weight. My 2025 resolution was to move on from a certain someone, whom I only visited in my dreams like a manic. for whom I wrote something on 10-dec-2024,

-"His love for me is like a sweet dream that I never want to end, My love is like a poisoned flame who wants to snuggle him completely into my soul. Will it be enough for him?

Sounds like a love problem. A new beginning looks good coming out of the mouth, but it is a serial killer who kills you in a slow, steadily, painfully cruel way. It's basically like CNC- consensual nonconsensual. Like you want it but also don't want it in some way. The way it fucks up your mind, your body. But the pleasure it gives you once you reach that high is akin to adrenaline.

But no matter how perfectly I plan the new stuff, I will end up with my thoughts, lonely, thinking where I went wrong. I will again end up with the same girl group who will put their insecurities on me and will later behave like a victim perfectly. I will again be portrayed as a mean lady who speaks about disliking a certain girl with her name while she would be standing in front of me. I will again be a dramatic, kaleshi(troublesome) and fearless lady who will turn 21.

Time passes quickly. This year, only the last digit of 2025 has changed. I will still be stuck up in my little bubble. Maybe 2027 will be my year?

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